| Inspired |
[Jun. 2nd, 2008|05:07 am] |
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once in a great while i free my muse from her bondage and i create
or should i say i wish to create something.
I was listening to some music and some lyrics caught me attention and i feel like posting them hear its a My Dying Bride song called Love's Intolerable Pain
Denial of our shadow side
Will often cause it to rise up
Against us
That he does not need to die
Allows his mind to soar
To fly
What if love's intolerable pain
never leaves?
What will your life's mark
leave upon this world?
What now, will my dark craft
do with your body now?
We walk as Gods together
through a fiery dawn
What if you love someone you
know you shouldn't love?
What will your dying father's
last words to you be?
What now, the painting of
young lovers is complete?
What if love's intolerable pain
never leaves us?
Do we dash our bleeding
hearts on the rocks of
loneliness?
And cry unto the lords above
who turn away in haste?
From the heart
Heart of snow
Comes the ice
It's crushing blow
From the soul
Whose love is sound
Comes the cold
It's frozen ground |
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| Time |
[Jul. 1st, 2007|01:31 am] |
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less than 8 hour to the move begins. 13 hours till i move in |
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| Woot for Vince |
[Jun. 13th, 2007|12:45 am] |
So as of yesterday it is official I have an apartment and we sign the lease this week. The only thing is Robin;s parents have to co-sign for us.
Its kinda getting to me my friends in Ct are giving Robin shit for us moving they think she is making me move again. the only thing is I'm making her move and she hates all the bs involved in it.
This past Sunday i got my second tattoo its the NERV symbol from eva. it hurts like a hell right now but i am not to worried about it cause its my second tattoo and about three or four times bigger. |
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| I have been lazy as hell lately....... |
[May. 25th, 2007|12:16 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Bed | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | hot | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Afi "fell into fantasy" | ] |
Well with the good news i am moving back to VT soon. I am trying to pack and visit with people. i really need to spend sometime with my family. when i get back to Vt i am going to tr and post three times a week or so i can keep in touch with my friends. other than that like is the same. |
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| Hate |
[May. 4th, 2007|03:33 am] |
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i hated spiderman 3. i.....so....much.........going......on |
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| My life |
[May. 2nd, 2007|04:03 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
It has been one year, one year has passed sense my best friend died. Its eating me up and i cant sleep. |
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| I am kinda happy |
[Apr. 23rd, 2007|12:53 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Bed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Manowar "Gods of Wat" | ] |
I had one of the best weekends of my life. I was in Vermont all weekend and I got to visit with some of my favorite people in this world. I real have to thank some of them: Nick he real helped make this trip, Ryan and Lori for being great letting me sleep on their couch and most of all the company (Lori has two of the nicest kids i have ever met), Tim for showing up to FNM, and Nichole for making it up to Burlington I had missed talking to her and i had almost been a year sense I last saw her. There are other people that made this weekend great but that would take forever
A few things happened this weekend that put my mind at ease. I felt like I had found home again. Yet the weekend had a few sad points for me Max had moved away i was really looking forward to seeing him. I also didn't get to take my walk around the lake. The two other thing i missed out on was placing first at FNM that honor went to Nick, and I didn't get to see my old roommates.
I hope that i can kick my ass into gear so I can start school in the fall again. I think i might do photograph or massage therapy but I miss school. I am starting to look for models to build a portfolio.
I am happy with my life... |
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| Well it's that time of year... |
[Apr. 11th, 2007|03:32 am] |
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I hate this time of year it always makes me depressed. April third my mom died, April fifth my grandmother died, and well a ton of other bad memories. I can't wait till next Thursday i will be in VT from 10 at night on the 19th till 5pm Sunday. |
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| I need help |
[Mar. 6th, 2007|02:35 am] |
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Well i want to do something with my hair any advise? |
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| Well |
[Mar. 5th, 2007|02:17 am] |
Well its march and felt like i should up date. Feb. went by so quick and its kinda depressing. Last year i was having so much fun around this time. It really makes me home sick for Vt. The only thing i have enjoyed lately has been hanging with Jimmy and playing WOW. I just want to get me creativity back and start drawing again but that means finding a new muse (any volunteers)
Yet there is some hope of re leaving some of my depression i am hoping to come up to vt St. Patrick's day weekend. But there are some problems with that i would need a place to stay for a few days. if anyone has a couch i could use that would be great. |
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| someday |
[Feb. 2nd, 2007|03:18 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | hell | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Vnv nation honour | ] |
well good news/bad news, robin didnt get the promotion she was up for so it looks like i will be moving back to vt this summer. i am hoping it all works out and we can move on time.
i really need to get a few new pics to post i am still using one form 03. i also have quiet drinking soda because i am trying to lose weight and be more health.
this years is a great year for movies
children of men
spiderman 3
pirates 3
300
Hannibal rising
ghostrider
and so many more
i have also started listing to techno and punk. i have fallen in love with VNV nation and i the Ramones. i know it is kinda sad that i didnt listen to the ramones before but i wasnt really in to punk. i also started listening to flogging molly and dropkick murphy's
if any one has any suggestions to any bands i should check out please leave me a message
well love death's cuddle bunny Vince |
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| well i was tagged |
[Feb. 2nd, 2007|03:04 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | hell | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | VNV Nation Honour | ] |
Rules: Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.
Well this is going to be hard.
1) i wanted to become a catholic priest
2) i wish i could still believe in god
3) i hate looking at my brother David. Every time i look at him it reminds me of my mother who dies of an od a week after he was born. the bitch
four) i break down and cry at weird moments and i have no clue why.
5) i have never visited my mother's grave
six) i like bad pop/80's music
7) i had a make believe friend named shadow till i was sixteen
8) i have been shot at twice. once by my ex Brandy it was unloaded. the other time the bullet bounced off a rock in to my leg.
9)i have a serious blood fetish
10) My ex tricked me into a threesome
i dont have many friends so meh |
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| children of men |
[Jan. 27th, 2007|01:56 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bed | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dropkick murhpys' shipping out to boston | ] |
well i show children of men last night. i thought it was a different movie so i was confused for the first two minutes or so, but it was one of the best movies i have seen in a while. the way it was shoot i fell in love with it. speaking of movie i am a little pissed that the departed didn't get more nods
i have been kinda depressed i miss Vt and it looks like i might have to wait even longer to return home. i have been gone a little over six months and i don't know what it has just felt like i left a large piece of myself there and there is nothing that can replace what i lost.
so i have drawn one picture, just one in the last three weeks and well i think it was crap but people liked it. i have taken on a project to draw peoples shadowrun characters but that is kinda hard when almost every week someone dies. but on the pen and paper note i might start my new game tonight if enough people show up yeah
right now i am waiting for my friend kelly we were going to hang out today but she hasent gotten here yet. oh well |
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| Hey |
[Jan. 18th, 2007|01:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | aggravated | ] |
I am in a weird place today so i felt i should post about it. I am thinking of changing my major to massage therapy so i have a fall back plan in case i fail at being an artist. or i will just change my major to photography and minor in psychology with the focus on Human sexuality. I want to do more with my life but i kinda screwed my self i got a tattoo on my neck. I am now blocking my ex Brandy cause she keeps pushing me in visiting her and a more then friend way and it is so hard to deal with. |
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| Short and well |
[Jan. 16th, 2007|03:18 am] |
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Well i got married. i got a tattoo, and i will be getting a hair cut other than that the same old shit |
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| emo lyrics |
[Nov. 17th, 2006|02:54 am] |
Three days grace
"Animal I Have Become"
I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)
I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied
(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell
(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become) |
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| i am.............. |
[Nov. 15th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bed | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | umbrella dir en grey | ] |
well i have been in a rut the last oh six months and i dont know why. well i know why i just refuse to be honest with myself. i feel like i am in my sophomore year of high school all over again. i havent drawn in a few weeks and i need to kick myself in gear or lose it forever. the only thing i have done lately is work on my rpg that i hope to put out in the next two years. well done ranting
love death's cuddle bunny vince |
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